Now I have the opportunity to truly concentrate on my passion.
I have been suffering. Suffering in almost silence. I say almost because I’m sure the people I live with have picked up the moans and groans.
Being a new mother, I put the tiredness down to having a two-year-old. All parents are tired, I know that’s the truth. The problem was the tiredness never went away. I was going to bed at eight and getting up ten hours later and I was still tired. Not a little sleepy, but bone tired. Where the very essence of you aches.
Then the pain started. First, it was a bad back. Then a bad back and a knee, then my elbows. The pain spread throughout my body. At one point I thought I was falling apart.
Whatever it is I will come through and my family will flourish. I’m determined in that. It is almost a relieve knowing soon I will have an answer to the problem. Other than I am just falling apart.
Something had to give
In my life, something had to give. I couldn’t work full-time in a high stress, high powered job and be a mother. The full-time job went. I said goodbye and walked away.
Now it has happened, I have to say I am relieved. I’m not giving up teaching, but I am going to chill for a while. Maybe a little agency work, fewer hours, for bigger financial rewards. No pressure and no stress.
Or maybe writing
I am in a position now where I have time on my hands and money in the bank. I will need an income, but I have a couple of months cushion.
So now I throw myself into my first love, writing. I have an opportunity to concentrate on my writing. To give it all my time and energy, to make it work.
Never will I have a chance like this again. The chance to throw my all into my passion and turn it into a career.
Will I succeed, time will tell. However, I know for a fact it is the things we don’t try in life that we truly regret.
Let the adventure begin.