Is lack of engagement, due to selfish writers, or are some of us not good enough? For the last week, I have been having an attack of confidence. Is this why my writing is suffering or are writer’s too selfish to support each other? You can make the decision about which is more likely, at the end of this post. For the last week, I have struggled with my writing. I have missed all my goals and hate the thought of sitting in front of a computer. Two things have happened this week. The first is the school, I am deputy head at, had Ofsted. For those outside education, this is the UK system of checking and grading schools. A stressful time for any teacher. As well, this week it was my little girls second birthday. Those two things have meant that writing has been my last priority.
Try to gain success at the expense of someone else, is never alright. Recently the negativity has been flowing again. Once again a writer has thought it was reasonable to call out another writer. Now I am not saying everyone on Medium is perfect, far from it and I include myself in that. But, I am bemused at the number of people who want to make it to the top, whilst trampling over others.
At 3 am Sunday morning, I was woken to my 22-month-old daughter in a very distressed state. She was shivering so bad, she could not stop. On arrival of the ambulance, she started to go into a seizure. Three seizures later we were told her temperature was 41.9. “Wow,” the nurse said. “The highest I have ever seen.” It was an award I never wanted. The brilliant staff at the hospital not only saved her life but also put her back together in three days. Although now there are signs she is still poorly, she has bounced back to almost her normal cheeky self. I’m Quitting Writing
Measure your success in a different way I mean no disrespect to any of my fellow writers who are proud of Top Writer status in Medium. In fact, I will celebrate your successes alongside you. For me, it has never been something I measure success on. There are plenty of other parts to Medium I am obsessed with - claps, reads, curation. My mental health is thankful that Top Writer isn’t one of my obsessions.
Well done you have finished writing your manuscript. You have worked through the edits and you are now ready to release it into the world. For the last year, you have been at the computer every available minute. You have successfully balanced a family, your job and writing. Sleep was the thing you surrendered, but it has all been worth it.
Having set the challenge to increase my followers by 1000. I have become obsessed with checking my stats. Today I noticed that in two hours I had lost one follower. Just one follower, but to me this one follower became the most important person to my blog. Before you all worry about the level of my sanity I went from 941 to 940 it was very noticeable. If only I could ask that 1 follower why they had unfollowed? What post made them unfollow?
How will article 13 affect writers? How many of us ignored our loved ones, to post on social media? Come the strike of midnight on 2019, I was sat watching my other half try to take a selfie with a snapchat filter. I had to sit there and wait for her to finish before I could wish her Happy New Year. I was fuming, in my head, I was the only person who was being ignored, for social media. Then I got a grip of myself and realised that all around the planet there were people being ignored. People who had seen 2019 in, with a phone in hand. People who were fighting for a signal, so they could post to social media. Why do we spend all our time on social media?